Why "I'm Back"... / by Katie Alyce

I started my journey with media and blogging in 2013. I did online radio for a few podcasts, started a music blog, and even did my own online segment. Now, all of this was new to me. I had never done anything of the sort, I literally just dived in head first. Everything was seemingly smooth until I started to receive attention. You would think attention would make me go harder, right? Wrong. It scared the shit out of me. I got so scared that the people checking for what I was doing would have room to be dissatisfied. I got scared that I was putting myself in too vulnerable of a situation. I also began to observe and catch onto how the underground scene of Dallas works. It wasn’t really about being talented, it was about who you knew. Which made me feel like any credibility I was getting wasn’t necessarily because I was using my voice and trying to support the culture, but because I was a cute girl with the right connections. I also let my personal life effect my dedication and work ethic. Basically, I wasn’t ready for that type of exposure. I was still trying to figure parts of myself and purpose out. It has been a long four years of feeling inspired, feeling discouraged, back to feeling ready to pursuit my ideas. I had to go through a lot in my early twenties to give me such a vast range of topics I can actually produce content from. Now I can write from experience, real true experience. I can share many situations I went through, that other people have faced/are facing now. I have witnessed the downfall and success of others in this field, and I can now use that to my advantage. There are so many things that I want to do in media, film, story telling, and other avenues. I had to live before I could commit myself to achieving these. Other people are great at doing these things while still living their regular lives. I was not. I could not handle the pressure of both. Now, I can. However, I can only do this because I am at a point of starting to take control of my own life. I will view my life positively, and any bad experiences will be marked off as something I needed to grow. I will no longer be in situations that take my dedication away from my self-progression and reaching my goals. I’m ready to give this my all. That is why I’m back…