Enlightened / by Katie Alyce

Today I woke up feeling enlightened. I woke up with the realization that every single day is a new beginning, a new start. If I choose to let the energies of yesterday seep into today then I have nobody else to blame but myself. Luckily, that is not what I am choosing to do. I am going to make the best of each new start. I am going to make my days progressive. I am going to live out my days with patience and understanding. I have an extremely bad habit of taking a bad week and thinking that is how I will feel for the rest of my life. I know feelings and situations are only temporary, and I will continue to tell myself this while simultaneously falling into depression. I mentally cannot take that type of mentality and thinking any longer. I am going to take this feeling of renewal and run with it. My life is always going to be up and down, because I am a person who feels different ways of different days. However, I am going to make it my biggest dedication to control these times of change, and know how to adapt accordingly. I do not like feeling unstable, I do not like feeling like I am just flowing whichever way life takes me. I control my life. I am the decision-maker, I choose to participate/not participate in experiences that will either add or take away from the progression of my life. People always tell me how smart I am, and how great my life is. That may very well be how it seems on the surface, but I have personal battles with myself. I need to be as smart as I am capable of being in every situation, not just when I find it necessary. I need to make my life as great as I possibly can, not just reach a state of comfort and content. For a very long time I have associated my age to my level of success, which is wrong. My path is completely different than anyone else’s, including my family. Just because my parents got married, started a family, and stayed together since the age of seventeen does not mean I have failed because I have not done this yet. Just because my siblings decided to choose a career, graduate college, and start families does not mean I have failed because I have not done this yet. I am 25, I am not 80 with little to no chance of creating the life I desire. I have plenty of time to sculpt my future, without trying to rush it. I can learn new things, take my time, grow, and find inspiration. I no longer want to compare my path to others, on any level, because it is not mine. My experience with life is unique and exclusive to me, nobody else. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest by this new outlook on life and I have every intention on manifesting these visions of myself into the new year. 2017 will be a pivotal year for me, and I am claiming growth, happiness, and progression.